I can't seem to abandon this blog just as yet. For all I know, I'll be back here by the end of the year. I find myself typing different posts on blogger and LJ, and I just felt like typing this particular post on blogger. Am I weird or what?

I like listening to worship songs, especially at night when I'm about to sleep. Not because it makes me fall asleep faster, in fact it makes me stay up thinking. Thinking about? I don't know. Sometimes i just find myself closing my eyes and worshipping instead. Other times I just think about the Lord's goodness. Why at night? I'm not too sure myself but it's probably because this is the time I normally do my quiet time. Are there songs that makes you fall in love with Jesus all over again whenever you listen to them? Or songs that makes you feel that you could learn how to trust God again even when you are on the verge of giving up? I do. My brother told me many years back when I was still a young believer that he liked worship songs with the words ' I love You' in it cause hardly any songs ever do that. And I find myself liking these love songs to God, cause it's more than just an emotional act, but I guess it's probably because that is what draws us to God Himself. His love for us. It's songs like these that constantly reminds me the exact reason why I'm holding on to strange thing called christianity, and this controversial person named Jesus. More than a person, really. If you really must know what's spinning on my itunes, they are:
1)Take all of me
2)More than life
3)Forever

and where the love lasts forever is my absolute favourite. The old Hillsong worship songs do get me. More than just singing though, it's putting love into action.

You know something? There's this tightness in my throat and constant worry.

I'm really afraid.