I'm trying out LJ.

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See you there!

Don't you just love great music? I'm listening to the latest album from Rooney and the songs grow on you. By the way, I'm contemplating on moving to LJ. I'm figuring out how to do up the LJ layout and stuff and fiddling with some stuff. The LJ cut is magic and I love the whole diary concept where you can lock whatever entries you want. But there's no tagboard so that the bad thing. And to be honest, I'm kind of attached to my current blog..it has seen me through some seasons and there's some sentimental value to it though I know, it's all electronic and archived.

I'll think about it further. :) See you guys tmr at Rudy and Christine's wedding and Goodnight.

Naive- Kooks

man.Some Indie music are too indie even for my liking. So I checked out Feist out right, since I've heard quite abit about her but it's just..I can't appreciate it. I need to run off pretty soon since I need to wake up early and type up about 1,200 more words to my PR (crap of an) essay.

AND! AND! I like this Coach wristlet a lot. (photo credits to coach.com) It's not like the signature ones you have out there and I like the colour combination. Not that I have anything against signatures, but it's something like looking at someone carrying a brown LV bucket bag nowadays. Plus, I still don't like LV at all. Actually I don't fancy Coach bags but the wristlets are cute. I like Gucci for its bags, especially those with the green and red band. And I believe that Chanel is a classic and everyone should have one of their bags. Just one. I'm not even dreaming of having one right now though, it's ridiculous cause it's obvious that I either got the bag as a present, or slogged my butt off just to buy it. And I won't save up for 6 months just to get a $3,000 bag. It's crazy.

If I get to go Korea I'll go check it out at the DFS :) But I've got a sneaky suspicion that they may not have this collection there.

Right. So we're talking about brands (and really luxurious ones, may I add) a little too much. I've always thought people my age, students, not holding a full-time job that pays well shouldn't splurge on something like that. Plus, you won't meet up to the status quo when you have the bag. But when you get a vintage branded bag, it's another story. hahahaha. right Nat, right. It's just different kay.

Maybe I'm tired. My eyebags are in desparate need of saving.

i'm back for the second time today.
I just bummed the whole day away and stared at the laptop clicking around aimlessly. Checking the usual shit..you know, hotmail, gmail, yahoo (yea i have many email accounts.i'm fickle minded)then my blog, friendster, facebook, googled some stuff, typed like 3 sentences of my media law assignment and that's it.
I was just talking with Van about how I've been feeling lately. It's weird that I've been rather reclusive lately and not wanting to socialise much. Of course, there're things like my many assignment deadlines at the back of my mind, but it's more than that. I just don't feel like hanging or going out. And my friends know I love going out, even if it's just a talk over coffee or something.
I'm at this place where I'm not even sure what I'm doing here anymore. It's the same old routine. School, doing assignments, church, work and then the same cycle all over again. I look at pretty photos of other 2o yr olds in Aussie have taken. And I wish I was there. But I know when I'm there, I won't have a bunch of good friends heading up with me. In a way I'm glad that I'll have sometime alone. But I don't think I'll be able to be alone for 4 months without talking to anyone. Van says I'm lost. Maybe I am. But I told her aimless is more like the word for it.
I'm at this phrase whereby I don't find much things that excite me anymore, and I don't find much that I look forward to. I hate the thought of going out to work full-time..I keep thinking of all the work politics I'm gonna face and I cringe.I don't strive to be at the top of the corporate ladder, really. I'm just happy earning enough to give me the capacity to cover all my expenses, have some savings, buy some stuff I want and travel. Kay I know I'm so not ambitious but whatever. I don't need to earn $15,000 a month. And I look at myself, and I think, so when's Africa coming? I have no idea how this's all gonna work out. How in the world do I go to the nations and reach out to hundreds and thousands when I'm feeling how I'm feeling now? I feel so uninspired. Seriously. Maybe I just feel that I can't give much to God. I have trouble coming up with things that I'm good at. I'm just..I think it's indescribable. I'm not sad. I'm not upset. I'm not angry. I'm not hurt. I don't know what I am. You know what I'm saying? Just uninspired.

I think, I just wanna go home.

I just realised how different I look now from where I was 3 years ago? You would think with the never changing long mane I have I'll look the same but nooo. It's pretty sad cause the youth essence is gone. But I guess that's all part and parcel of growing up? The song 'forever young' by Youth Group is playing in the background now. I am reminded of this song as I am typing this now and it aptly describes how I feel.

seventeen

Eighteen


Nineteen


Today

Forever Young (Originally by Alphaville)

Lets dance in style, lets dance for a while

Heaven can wait were only watching the skies
Hoping for the best but expecting the worst
Are you going to drop the bomb or not?

Let us die young or let us live forever
We dont have the power but we never say never
Sitting in a sandpit, life is a short trip
The musics for the sad men

Can you imagine when this race is won
Turn our golden faces into the sun
Praising our leaders were getting in tune
The musics played by the madmen

Forever young, I want to be forever young
Do you really want to live forever, forever and ever

Some are like water, some are like the heat
Some are a melody and some are the beat
Sooner or later they all will be gone
Why dont they stay young

Its so hard to get old without a cause
I dont want to perish like a fading horse
Youth is like diamonds in the sun
And dimonds are forever

So many adventures couldnt happen today
So many songs we forgot to play
So many dreams are swinging out of the blue
We let them come true



And I feel a tinge of nostalgia seeping in...

www.myspace.com/hillsongunited

check out 'You Deserve' from their latest EP.
The album is written by a group of under 21s. Not only are the songs great, it's really encouraging to see a new generation of people using their creative gift to write them. If their youths can do it, I think generations can come up with a decent youth album as well. And it's in the works. I'm not talking about just music, but the whole youth ministry in general.

I'm excited about what it to come. I know we're building up to something and it's almost as if I can smell it from the distance. It's somewhere near, hovering around. When we finally get to it, I imagine an explosion that thrusts our youth ministry forward, fueled with passion and character. And when we're finally revealed, we stand like a troop of mighty army, unwavering in our faith.

2008. It will be our year.