This window has been opened for 45 minutes, and I know what I'm gonna write next. I'm listening to 1969 and Camera Obscura and I'm flipping the pages back and forth, trying to find the apt words to fill this entry. These words are gonna weigh a lot. They're not light on the ears.
www.humanforsale.com I've tried this once, all in the name of fun and nothing else, just to see how much I am worth. You know, basically if you're blonde,tall and skinny, you're already ahead of others. If you've got a masters in Psychology or something, great news cause you're now worth $200,000 more.It's such an ego booster, knowing that you worth much more than others and that whoa,if someone were to buy me, I cost 3 million. In the bible, it says we're to love people. Not to love the pretty people.or skinny people.or the well-educated ones. I wonder how many times we look at someone who comes from a humble background, maybe a dish washer, and we walk on by, never giving them a second thought thereafter. Many times we choose who we wanna love, and who we think we should reach out to. The thing is, the bible didn't ask us to reach out to nice people or our good friends. It says to bring the gospel to the ends of the earth and i guess that means to all cultures,religions, to the lovely and unlovely people. We always claim that we look at a person's character and we decide if we like them and not by their exterior. Face it, we do count on first impressions, and sometimes they make lasting impressions and we never get over them. I think God didn't die so that we can choose who to save, or who to love, or who to even talk to. What gives me the right to even think that a person is not worth my time speaking to just by a 5 second glance? And on Saturday, God just reminded me of this website.Where people go on it and check out how much they're worth. How the world really categorises you and tags you with a price tag. Highly educated- $4,500,000 Lowly educated- $500,000
All of us are marked with a tag too. But they all read the same. And it doesn't matter if we're not as smart as our siblings, or as pretty as our best friend, or as popular as someone else. We may not have many talents, may not have the best character, may have done more mistakes than most people, but we're all priceless. Not in my eyes maybe, but in the eyes of God.
And it's important that we get over ourselves, and see through His eyes.
I wrote my heart down.
12:24 AM
Monday, June 25, 2007
So church camp was awesome. my 20th was a blast. and here are the long overdued trigger happy moments.
Church camp '07 At Alamanda Meng washing her slippers in the houseflies infested pool.ew. A&W!!! oh.my.goodness. Me and Pris spent the whole camp taking photos of ppl who did tt. *points above* UNGLAM LAAAAAA.but who cares.Coney dog is worth it. toliet humour 1 ignore my bro and Lebobo.check out Andrew and Rudy, my daily source of entertainment throughout the 4 days. Oh! who lives in a pineapple under the sea? Pillow fighttttt On the van going to Lot 10 Zone 5 (: our handsome youth pastor LOOK AT NAM!! pris asked me to act pissed, just like the woman in black. toliet humour 2
My 2oth ! Was spent with my church friends at Billy bomers but no photos la. Also with Van,Esther and Owen at hog's breath but I'm still waiting for my photos which are with Est. My birthday itself was spent with May,Ginli and Hy and the family.
Dinner at Fullerton with family my dark chocolate cake which i devoured within minutes I know, we don't know much about etiquette. me,bro and Weizheng :)
With the girls on 17th June Our Obey t-shirts and powerpuff girls cake.and I promise that I have nothing to do with it. Goodnight world. Wanted to blog abt something else tonight, but I think I'll do it tmr. and whatever happened to all the tags? ONG JINGYI?CHIEN KWOKSENG.
I wrote my heart down.
11:42 AM
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Endlessly-New life worship With your majesty here I fall to my knees I love you endlessly With the beauty of your Son I find myself undone I love you endlessly
Saviour of my soul lover of my life I love you endlessly
Passion of my heart Everything You are I love you endlessly
You love me before I knew of You You love me Now I give it back to You
With your majesty here I fall to my knees I love you endlessly With the beauty of your Son I find myself undone I love you endlessly
King who paid my price Death has brought me life I love you endlessly
Grace on which I stand With everything I am I love You endlessly
You love me before I knew of You You love me Now I give it back to You
With your majesty here I fall to my knees I love you endlessly With the beauty of your Son I find myself undone I love you endlessly
I wrote my heart down.
1:16 AM
Saturday, June 02, 2007
On the music playlist: songs from Hillsong United's 'all of the above' album Way out by Yeah Yeah Yeahs Forever Lost by The Magic Numbers
I'm back from the leader's retreat. It's awesome. It was almost like a much needed getaway for us. Paul Geerling isn't a fiery speaker. Instead, the messages were really practical and it speaks in a different way. More like a surgical treatment in the heart, twigging stuff here and there, removing the unneccessary and inserting lessons wherever applicable. I'm refreshed,and I feel more than ever than I'm on a road of no return. I'm sure there's no other path I would wanna take than to know and serve God. This IS greater than travelling around the world, indulging in the finest cuisines, climbing up the corporate ladder and yes,even shopping. I mean, I'll definitely get to do some of these even if I serve God. But these are not my primary purposes for living my life here. I'm not living my life if I were to lead a partying life, achieve straight As and graduate top of the cohort or hanging out with my friends. And given the options, they are like tasteless salt, I've lost my liking for them.
Having said all of these, there's always this perception that we shouldn't be too serious about God and stuff when we're young. You know, we should do what we like doing and wait till when we're older and mature enough to handle such things. I beg to differ. There'll be no 'let's wait till we get older' kind of thing. I know this perception, cause I thought like that at 15. I was in church, but I wished I wasn't. I wished my church leaders would not call me when I didn't come for cell groups and service. I wished I didn't know that Jesus was real so I didn't have to attend church every sunday cause I wanted my own life outside. I felt bad cause time and again I found myself responding to altar calls even though I didn't want to, and yet only to backslide 3 weeks later. I hated the sick cycle carousal. I knew God touched me, but I hated the committment. I thought it was such a fun sucker,to have my weekends taken up by church activities. If there's anything I've learnt within these 5 years, it's that I know God loves us and His love reaches out to you. Sometimes you can run away and try to hide from it, but He tugs at your heart. And don't ignore it. Cause eventually I didn't, and I've not looked back since.
and no, I'm not a religious little twig trying to convert christians. But what I've experienced and learnt, I wanna share with you all. (:
On a lighter note, I had an awesome 20th. I still feel old, but my friends makes growing older a little more bearable. Thanks for all the birthday wishes (regardless whether it's through my tagboard,MSN,blogs,friendster or smses), presents and gift cards. Appreciate you all loads alright?I know, I'm supposed to upload photos and send them out but I'm a little lazy right now.(what's new?) I'll do a major photo upload once I get all my celebrations done. Yea, I know..how many people I wanna celebrate with?!! eh basically all that have asked me and all that I've asked? I couldn't squeeze everything into a week anyway cause I had my retreat. Sunday night was with my church friends at Billy bombers. (the usuals except for Sarah.sick :() Following that was Hogs breath with my Poly mates (Van,Owen and Esther.Jules was sick also. :( ) on Tuesday. Wednesday afternoon was with some of my close seconday school girl friends, more affectionately known as the 'chao-tas' because of a failed baking attempt at Bugis's Sakae Sushi.Then it was dinner with the family and Weizheng at Fullerton. I found a new liking for FOIE GRAS!!Ok I know it sounds gross, it being goose liver and all. BUT IT IS REALLY NICEEEEE.And the dark chocolate cake I had was.........(drools at the mention of it) enough said. And of course,sashimi! :))) My mum said that Ritz Carlton's food was better though. Father's day is around the corner so maybe I'll get to try their stuff soon.Well...hopefully. The next 2 weeks is gonna be madness, what with 2 camps and tests coming up and all. Check this out.
4th June-meet Van to collect Diploma cert, head to Lime office to submit her article, and then town to window shop.or shop.(depends on the cirsumstances.heh heh) 5th June-working closing 6th June-working opening 7th June-School and Section getaway 8th June-School and Section getaway 9th June-Work and section getaway 10th June-tentatively outing with BnJ girls
11th June-church camp 12th June-church camp 13th June-church camp 14th June-church camp 15th June-Media Audiences mid-term test 16th June-Not sure yet 17th June-celebrating Bell's and my (very belated) birthday at Kenny Rogers
IS MY SCHEDULE CRAZY OR WOT??!Lord,Please give me time. PLEASE.
I wrote my heart down.
9:07 PM
Hello,what's your name?
Name:Natalie Wong
Age:20
Birthday:30th May 1987
School: Undergrad at Murdoch Uni(Mass Communications)
Oh yes, it's the self- introduction section again where you're supposed to pigeon hole yourself in 50 words.(labelling allowed)Well, I believe in someone called Jesus and that in itself has changed my character and life in many ways. That's about it. Talk to me and you can have the right to label me further.|
