Many years ago when I was still a student in St.Hilda's, I was taught hymns and Christian songs. I learnt this song. It goes like this:

I have decided, to follow Jesus
I have decided, to follow Jesus
I have decided, to follow Jesus
No turning back, no turning back

The world behind me, the cross before me
The world behind me, the cross before me
The world behind me, the cross before me
No turning back, no turning back

Though none go with me, still I will follow
Though none go with me, still I will follow
Though none go with me, still I will follow
No turning back, no turning back

It was completed with actions and all. That was just another nice song to me at that point of time. A song I learnt with my other classmates. I didn't understand what it really meant even though I sang it almost every week.

10 years down the road, sometimes I find it hard to utter the lyrics of this song. Yesterday I sang it, grasping the meaning of each word.

"I have decided to follow Jesus." Said Jim Elliot. He traded in his life at 30 to the Auca Indians.

"I have decided to follow Jesus." Said Mother Theresa. She devoted her entire life loving people.

"I have decided to follow Jesus." Said Richard Wurumbrand. He was imprisoned for 16 years for preaching the gospel. He was in jail for such a long time, he forgot how to write.

"I have decided to follow Jesus." Said Rachel Scott. She was shot dead at the Columbine high school massacre after replying 'you know I do' when one the gunmen asked if she believed in God.

"I have decided to follow Jesus." Said Peter. After he was caught, he requested to be crucified upside down as he's not worthy to be crucified the same way as his saviour did.

Their depth of devotion, passion and faith amazes and puts me to shame. They taught me that it's more than just singing a song. Yesterday I stood singing this song, with tears streaming down, I knew I'm ruined. I gave up myself, with outstretched arms, to exchange for His plans and purposes and accomplishing them. I may never have to face a day where I have to choose between my life and God. I won't know. But everyday I do have to choose if I am gonna live for Him. And I know there will come a time He's going to demand things from me. And if I say no, He will say, 'You said you decided to follow Me, didn't you?'

"I have decided to follow Jesus." Said Natalie. The story continues.