Despite the endless deadlines and countless articles I have to churn out, I'm still here typing with relative ease. I have to say that i'm taking things a step at a time. In terms of dealing with issues and handling my school work. But I'm coping well, if I do say so myself. Not much emo nights, maybe 'cause I occupy myself with enough company and stuff to do so my mind won't drift somewhere else.

Charles mentioned about learning to trust God yesterday. I wonder how many times I've said I trusted God and really did so without having the slightest doubt? Many times I say a prayer that goes something like this: 'Lord, teach me to learn how to trust you in this area.' or 'Lord, I want to have faith that you're gonna do this and I know that everything is in your hands and I shouldn't worry.' But I think I've never told God that I trusted Him completely. Even if the odds seemed to be against me. Even if it seemed that nothing was happening. I'm learning though. Slowly but surely.

I feel that this has been a good week. My countenance has lit up quite a bit.
Monday and Tuesday were projects days. Wednesday was work day plus supper with BFFFL. Thursday was crazy project day and wanting-to-burn-my-laptop day. Friday was shopping day with Trena and the BFFFL and Meet-the-ex-Siglapians day. Honestly. The 3 of us were at town and we bumped into Fahmi,Ian,Fadhil and Raq one after another. Weird. But great seeing them all the same. Saturday was cell day. I really think that we're a family. It's funny 'cause I was previously in another cell for about 3 years straight and I didn't feel such closeness as I do with my current cell. Then again, it may be because I feel much more integrated in Generations and the church now. Today was church day and Coffee bean with friends and soccer at Isaiah's place day. I've never felt such patriotism for Singapore in my life or rather, such a love for soccer before. Catching soccer with the guys is really quite an interesting thing. It brings out the funniest and worst in them. Lol. But ay, all of us including the girls were shouting as well. You get hyped up after awhile. (:

Tmr will be go to school for 4 hour lunch break day and hopefully Sakae Sushi buffet day. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that my tutor will let us off early. Tuesday will be waking up at 5.30 to send Charles off day. Goodness I haven't woke up so early since Siglap days but sometimes it feels good to know that you kick start the day fresh. And back then nothing beats having friends to look forward to when you're leaving the house before sunrise. But we'll leave that for some other time yea?

For now I'm bowing out and making a beeline for my bed 'cause I slept at 5 yesterday just to complete Charles's video and I was out till 2 on Friday with Di. So i'm reeeeally drained. Here's to a less stressful and better week ahead. (yea I'm still trying to convince myself)

Much Love from an exhausted but generally happy Nat. *grins*