It won't help if I shut my mouth and refuse to commit to any of those. Here's the senario. I've an opportunity to go to Perth to study. It's something I've dreamt of doing since I reached my adolescent years. BUT I'm not that rich and I have responsibilities here. In my church and family.
The thing is, I don't wanna look back 10 years later when I have a stable job and say 'I wished I had gone to Australia to study for the experience. Now I will never know how it's like.' And I don't wanna tax my parents too much on my expenses. So what now? Decisions decisions. I'm confused, but I do know one thing. Psalm 23:1. The Lord is my Shepherd. The Shepherd leads His sheep home always.
I feel like I'm at this huge field covered with pretty little flowers and I'm ready to take flight. I flapped my wings, but alas. I glanced down and saw weights holding me down. All I needed to do was to reach down and detach them from my ankles. I yanked them off and looked up, all ready to take flight, once again. This time though, nothing's holding me down but the wings drooped and I'm not sure if I really wanna do this anymore.
I wrote my heart down.
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