You know what?

I should totally change my blog picture. It's towards the end of 2006 already.



Yea i know. I still can't believe yet another year is on its way to passing.
I'm thinking what i have accomplished this year. Have i just sat through and wasted 8 months of my life or did something i was actually proud of? Did i just went to church to jump to some songs or did i inspire somebody? Have i complained more than i have encouraged? Thought more than putting it into action? Held back more than gathering boldness to do what i want? Feel directionless more than pupose driven?

Yes to all of the above.
But no, i'm not gonna continue with these excuses and restrain. One thing i have realised it's that i live far too short to want to bother about people's opinions about my dreams,values and pursue. It's a Now thing.

I'm not gonna be wasted. Nor elegantly wasted (however you define it).

I live in the now.

Think i'll just update a lil' on what has been going on.

1) It has been almost a month since we last talked.
2) I havent seen my BFFFL for 3 weeks.
3) I took a liking on the bassist of the Early November.
4) The last weekend i had the 2 most powerful services in church.
5) I like obscure bands more and more. (touriste, anyone? Lo mass republic?)
6) I can't stop shopping. i thought i exhausted my shopping list but right after that i had a brand new one.
7) I'm feeling broke.
8) I feel out-of-touch with my friends
9) I miss having lip-smacking tongue twisting sambal stingray (for the sake of spending less)
10) Eh, i think i need another holiday soon. The last one was just 4 months back.
11) I'm feeling directionless now 'cause i have no idea what i'm gonna do after graduation. I wanna study overseas, and yet i don't wanna go for more than 2 yrs. And there's the money issue. and the church. and the family and friends.
12) I wanna be back in secondary school so i have less to worry about. If i was having a bad day, my 8 close friends were always there to give me good laughs and hugs.
13) I hate it that by next year all of us will go our separate ways 'cause i already feel far enough from you all.
14) SIP's finishing in 6 weeks' time. i can'ttttt wait.
15) I've been hanging out with Van and Jules quite a bit. looove. (:
16) I miss those i haven't seen for awhile.
17) I'm getting more melacholic as the years go by. Why, i wonder? I need the sanguine streak in me back here now.
18) I don't know how am i gonna survive if i didn't know Jesus. Going ard in circles, perhaps.
19) A sudden urge to curl my hair.

Tunes that are spinning..and spinning repeatedly: (Not in order of preference)
1. Calm down- Touriste
2. Lasting impression- The Starting Line
3. Redeemer- Planet Shakers
4. Take all of me- Hillsong
5. If I told you this was killing me, would you stop- The Juliana Theory
6. The long spring- Explosions in the Sky
7. Class 'A' love affair- The Great Spy Experiment
8. Find a way- Plain Sunset
9. After midnight- J Minus
10. Symphony of Blase'- Anberlin


The permanent fixtures in the ipod: (In order of preference)
1. Learning to breathe- Switchfoot
2. I can only imagine- MercyMe


Soon-to-be permanent fixture in the ipod:
1. After Midnight- J Minus

Yesterday I was bombarded with this message in mySpace.It turned out to be this band who wanted me to give them a listen..so i thought 'alright..just like any other band that msged me yea..' so i went and clicked away. You know how some songs start out really well but halfway through it, your mind is somewhere else..and some that don't make an impression at first but blows you away at the bridge. But this J Minus song got me hooked from the first note to the end. It's on repeat mode ever since. Amazing band. Take a listen to it. www.myspace.com/Jminus



"After Midnight"-J Minus

after midnight I'll meet you by the seaside in my mind
I could walk a million miles with you by my side
see the glow of the moon dancing through the night
words can't describe the feelings i hold inside
and after midnight, I come to you in a dream
take my hand and run away to a place you've never seen
and we can watch the water such a beautiful sight
we'll be together after midnight

chorus
Please don't wake me up don't take me from this place I'd rather be
I don't know if you can go there, outside of a dream
if i could i would i'd stay there with you, never want to leave
you will always be there with me, holding as i sleep
and after midnight i'll see you beneath the darkened skies
we can run around in the open chasing fireflies make a wish upon the stars, forever we'll be free
cause i've become a part of you and your a part of me

Chorus 2

Bridge
if i lead you, will you follow?
stay right behind me
if i take you, leave your sorrow
stay right behind
if i lead you, will you follow?
stay right behind me
no more worries till tomorrow
no more worries..........

I like the word 'imagination'.

I've heard some people say that the biggest nation in the world is imagination.
I think imagination takes you places where you can't go. It creates pictures in your mind that you can't put to drawings. Ideas that can't be justified with mere words.

I like the word 'imagination.'

I've seen a stadium full of youths, full on for God. But i've imagined a stadium full of history makers.

I've read the book of Acts. But i've imagined the book of Acts come to life again, in every individual's life.

I come a little closer to home.

I've imagined a miracle between us.
I've imagined myself a few thousand miles from home, and i see a familiar face i havent seen for a long time.
I've imagined myself dying. (but in the end i changed my mind and i decided i wanted to live again)

But that's imagination. It takes you places where you can't go. It brings you closer to people you can't reach.