3 years and 7 months ago:

you introduced me to a new way of communication. I remembered your screen name; probably you hated it, but i wouldn't know. You became my first friend and each day an hour is spent chatting. I thought you said i was funny,no wait. You did say so. We had a myraid of topics we could come up with, and they were spontaneous.


3 years ago:

we did not talk too much


1 year 10 months ago:

you surprised me. You surprised me pleasantly. I thought it was a start to something new.Perhaps it was.


7 months ago:

I did something that's uncharacteristically me. and probably that was also the end to something.


1 hour ago:

I thought maybe you would cheer me up. I tried to relive 3 years and 7 months. through a conversation. whoa.How far we have come. but how much i have remained silent about.


5 minutes ago:

I thought about 3 years and 7 months worth of conversations and cried.


Now:
misty eyes and left with a huge question that i've ran away from once too many times.

BAYBEATS 2006!

Did 3 days just passed like that?




Throngs of people

Jarrell in Green and Mr. Afro hair man in the middle (well, Shafiq actually)

The Baybeats Hype.Makes you wanna Moshhhhh..

An artwork that was displayed near the Chillout stage

Me and Mengye



I miss Baybeats already.
It was crazy, the crowd.
But crazy makes the gig a whole lot more exciting.


Went on Friday evening with Jules and Van.And tonight, with Meng and Jiahui.
Bumped into Isaac,Laura,Eme,BFFFL,3na,Adil,May,Jarrell and many ex-siglapians.
and Jon saw me.
So in other words, Baybeats is also a good way to meet up with ur ex-classmates esp since all of them are gig-going people.

Thumping drums. Exhilirating sounding guitars.

Can't beat that, can you?

Dear You,

It was a year and a day ago. I think you've forgotten already. It seemed just like a month ago though.But i thank you for the memories that are still fresh, and perhaps etched in my mind.




I feel the bittersweet tinge between my teeth. :'(

there're so many awesome bands on myspace! (:

Here's one that i like. They're Jupiter Sunrise.

"Why'd I Wait So Long"

The shape of forever 'round her finger
from whom her love belongs
Drivin' home I wonder, "why'd I wait so long?"
Why'd I wait so long?

Whoah, oh no
Why did I wait so long?
Whoah, oh no
Why'd I wait so long?

Where, now, will all this love for you belong?
All the feathers I was holding
have long since blown away
When Spring sings a new song for me
Am I still holding on?
Am I still holding on?

Whoah, oh no
Why did I wait so long?
Whoah, oh no
Why'd I wait so long?
Where, now, will all this love for you belong?

This song's for moving on...

Whoah, oh no
Why did I wait so long?
Whoah, oh no
Why'd I wait so long?
Where, now, will all this love for you belong?

Yesterday night i had a bbq at one of my friend's place. While eating halfway, we heard someone screaming and we turned to see this girl lying flat at the edge of the swimming pool wailing and scolding this little boy. Initially we thought she was crazy,then we saw the maid pushing a wheelchair towards her. That's when we realised she was actually paralysed. At that point of time i felt really awful for making assumptions before i even knew the situation and i bet all of us felt the same way. Today i thought about the girl again. More than just compassion, i'm thinking..maybe most of us are much more fortunate in that sense.We have limbs that can walk,hands that can draw and eyes that can express our feelings. But how many of us are paralysed emotionally? You're directionless, depressed half the time, walking around staring into blank spaces as if that will give you relief. In fact so many people are walking ard in clutches and travelling ard in wheelchairs and yet we do not know it. That's even worse than being paralysed physically. I know, 'cause i've been paralysed for the whole week. But as much as Jesus heals the physically disabled, he heals the emotionally paralysed. I know, 'cause He taught me how to walk again. Maybe i wobbled; maybe i tripped. But i stood up and walked. What about you? (:

Lord, You're the only one who can help me through this now.

You know what absolutely pisses me off?

1) When people cancel on me last minute without a valid reason
2) When i am not being assertive enough
3) when i don't walk away knowing very well i should
4) And i know, i know that i'm the only one bothering

Never thought i'll say this but i've been daydreaming about me going to Melb alone. Like 'whhhaaat?Nat wanting to be alone?? She's like always the one looking for company right?' Well right now i don't.

Perhaps noncommital and promise breaking friends are the cause of it.


I'm sick of

- Having a best friend who doesn't reply my messages
- Stupid guys who stalk me
- Stupid guys in general
- Being taken for granted
- Friends who only ask me out when they have problems
- Friends who only contact me when they want something

yada yada.

So now that i've made my grievances, sadly i don't feel better. It makes me even more upset that even in this state of mind i still have to do stupid scanning of documents at work.