I can't stop thinking of Sha. I'm so upset tt i've tons of incompleted assignments waiting for me. It's such a dread..especially doing my 1-minute video..it takes 20 hours to do a decent 1-minute video,can you believe it?It's crazy, really. I would much rather spend my time in the hospital with Sha..i really just wanna give my time to her. Maybe i just feel guilty. For? I dunno..for not praying for her. Somehow i feel tt there can be so many things that could have been done, but yet i dunno how. If i could just describe how helpless i feel abt the situation right now. Dear Lord, Help.

My dear friend,

I pray for the best in your life. That you will be strong and you realise that many people care for you. I know you're hurting inside and sometimes in your presence i am silent. Maybe cause i am stunned at the turn of events in just a week..or maybe deep inside i know you dont need these medicine, just faith. And one day, i want you to be able read what i wrote especially for you. And that's my prayer.

Love,
Nat

it's 20th jan, right? I kinda lost track of time there..my wireless spoilt and i cant access the net..it's been 2 weeks!! :( ok this's a short entry..Suzanna is beside me and i'm supposed to be practising my co-hosting with her. UGH! That's the first and last time i'll dread looking pretty. (i'll be wearing a black gown)

ok, take care and till then...i'll still love Jesus.

4th Jan 2006.
When i said goodbye to 2005 i didn't expect to be bidding 2003 and 2004 bye as well. I just threw 3 yrs of history away to all of 5 lines.

New year resolutions for 2006

1) I want to stop feeling stupid.
2) I will do well in my studies and not be discouraged if i don't.
3) Travelling!!
4) To find my gift.
5) To be a good shepherd.
6) That i may run to the hiding place.
7) a BF (umm,i didn't mean to say that aloud)
8) for cloud9 to go on for a 6th year,and a 7th,8th,9th,10th...till we carry babies. (That was totally random)

Right now though,i feel pretty much lousy about myself.WHY again??!!

:(