I keep feeling that God is calling me to a place of abandonment. I've been so caught up with my grades;fallen so many times. I felt like a dry well..i couldn't even cry at the altar. But today during service i prayed for tears. Then Eun came beside me and prayed for me. And tears came. I want to be able to live a life of Hannah and God is calling me deeper. Di came on monday for one of the sessions, and i know she got her breakthrough. God made known to her that He's real. Somehow things that flirted with me before dont appeal to me anymore. Im discovering gems i've not seen, beauty that i didn't know of and i wouldn't trade in for anything else in this world. I want to leave a life abandoned to God. It may sound absurd, maybe if i read it a yr ago i wouldn't have known i would be writing this now. Have you checked the dictionary recently to find out the meaning of 'everything'? I finally found out what it meant. Everything means Jesus.
I wrote my heart down.
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