Thanks May..somehow you always manage to cheer me up! :)

When i read your entry,i found that we really DID do so many stupid stuff..some of them which i have forgotten.Like i forgot we took photos in front of the fire extinguisher..but now i do..

Recently i finished up my scrapbook..and in each page i wrote something abt you guys..the ink just flowed and suddenly things that we did hidden at the back of my mind all came back..and it's a really good feeling.Cause 1 thing i do not want to do is to forget my sec school life. Just talking about it brings me a surge of ife and energy.

haha just to continue from your entry..luisa is doing fine..at least from the last i heard..she started school at Uni of melbourne in Feb..Sucan too..he's in Indiana(did i spell that correctly?that's one of the side-effects of being best friends with Diana.Her spelling disability rubs off on me.hahaha..FRISE.)Anyway,do you rememer Adil being such a lousy class manager..always bringing the class keys home..(actually jon also v lousy la..but at least he didn't bring the class keys home..hahaaha)I wonder why we nominated them as class managers and not someone like Fursham or Sucan..who do their homework,come to school early and don't skip class on the last day of each term. And how the guys always taper their pants and can't sit properly but always nv get caught.We always had this on-going enemity for 4I..somehow we simply couldn't stand their class. I remembered how you and wenqi liked discussing about each episode of Spongebob Squarepants in class...hahaa but i didn't get it then cause i didn't watch it.But i am a convert now!hahaha.And how we nicknamed each other!! I still have the birthday card ginli drew for me..and all of you wrote in it...including Jieling,cuiting and Wenqi..hahaha..i told Jon the nicknames we had for each other..and he kept laughing at mine.WAHLAO EH.What is this!
I remember our classmates are so weird sometimes..they say really random stuff..like how Thomas will talk nonsense..and Zul with his 'siiiimply trrrash..' hahaha..i know you used to hide a storybook behind your maths textbk and make it obvious that you were so not listening to miss Yong..you will laugh in the middle of an explaination of linear equation.hahaha.We will be waiting for the recess bell with anticipation each day..the best is when Mr wee lets us off 5 minutes earlier to eat...den we will 'chioooong only'..There was a period of time we loved eating sandwiches and we would bring tuna fillings and what have you to class and eat it during the change of periods.There was once we were eating halfway when Miss Ng came in and we panicked...and do you remember the time Fursham danced to the Chihuahua song and Mrs Ngoo caught him in action?!I had to bring my portfolio to APEL class on friday and i read my testimonial..den i remembered that we joined Enterprise club..hey..what was that again?I completely forgot i had a CCA like that!hahahaah...the guys were always so vain too..always admiring themselves in any form of reflection..(window panes included)until Miss Wee punished them..hahaha..and how all of us loved being punished in class..esp for Social Studies cause we get to slack outside. and how huiying always complain abt being fat till Mr Wee told her to join MASS comm.Also,the whole class knew abt my green tea addiction.. ;) I know Brandon was always being an ass lar..everytime talk so much and nobody can concentrate on their work.You know,i always looked forward to school then cause i knew we will have fun as a class even though it was 'O' levels and all.But we thought that would never end..

and i can say that it hasn't.It's still in us. :)

I'm now in class (what's new?) haha..seems like i have a problem with typing long entries..i have so many things going on through the week..and yet when i'm facing this screen wanting to type an entry,my mind is blank. Weird,huh?

sometimes i feel like i don't understand myself. I don't understand why i constantly feel that i am not being loved enough or being ignored.You know people always say that i am cheerful and all. That day May sent me an sms and ask me to describe her in a word.If i were to send out that message,the word that would probably be used most frequently would be 'cheerful'. I am not so sure about that. Sometimes i laugh and talk, but inside of me, i dont know if i am genuinely happy.I know c9 loves me..i know my secondary school frens and church frens do too..but i am not so sure abt my poly frens.

To May (if you're reading this) : I think i understand what you mean about people hating you. i really don't think they do..but i get the feeling sometimes that people hate me too. I have never had such a hard time trusting people until i came into TP.Even crying is not enough anymore..i just have to deal with it,i guess.

On a lighter note, I skipped school yesterday to meet vicky and sha. I went to vicky's house and we had lunch at Downtown east together. it's been such a long time since i ate at tea Valley..reminds me of our regular trips to the place when we were in siglap. Had a lot of fun talking to her..and for the first time in the week,i felt like myself. Truly myself. And i managed to act childish knowing that she wouldn't give me weird stares. After that i saw Sha and we talked for an hour more before i headed off for project while Vicky and sha went to meet Trena for the Vatican art exhibition. I love you girls.. ;)

I do not need transparency.
I need visibility.

We learn something new everyday..

" You may never have to face the decision of whether or not to die for your faith, but everyday you face the decision of whether or not you will live for it."
- Taken from 'Jesus Freaks' by DC talk

Hannah- Favoured Grace

Here's my week so far..i tried uploading some photos to show you guys but i can't!

Monday: Went to school to help some grps with their multicam reherseal..den when to City Hall to meet Jon.It's been a long time since i met him but he's still the same.Went to Pasta Mania (he got turned off by the smell of cheese) and after that to Far East to get some cds.. :)

Tuesday: Went to school for multicam reherseal (sounds familiar?)..den headed to simei for CMM council BBQ..a very good turnout..and i guess i got to talk to some freshies..they're a cool bunch.Very semangat.Did i spell that correctly?

Wednesday: outing with cloudies!!celebrated Biki's birthday..went to Marina Square to eat and walk around for awhile..waited for Biki(ok, vicky)..den we headed to Swensens @ Suntec and bought an ice cream cake for her!!haha..after that headed to Trena's place and played mahjong..and Vicky started floating on helium.HAHAHA.But she got home safely.I made sure.

Thursday: Met up with Eunice and Juli for dinner at Whitesands..had a nice chat..I love my shepherd!!

Friday:Supposedly to help out at graduation ceremony but blew it to go to Vicky's house for mahjong.and of course,just talk nonsense like we always do.And i created my own film..entitled eh..'the haunting bunny'.hahaha..

Saturday: ONE BIG DAY!!overwhelming success..700 plus ppl came and many salvations.Praise God.Bumped into Naomi and Adin too..and some siglapians..unfortunately they are all in sec1 or 2 so i dunno who they are.

Sunday: well that's tmr..but i was supposed to go for baybeats wth durrah..but she can't make it..sad.I guess i'll either go home and sleep or find someone else to go with me..ok take care all of you!

(:

I'm all smiles.

Sorry that this is the only entry that you see guys..i had no choice but to delete my blog..i dunno what's wrong with my template la..always got some foul ups.

Anyway,I got a new skin..and new things to say. I decided that the last blog was getting quite sadistic.

Anyway, can't wait for this Wed!Our Cloud9 reunion!! :) I miss you girls..

Well, I'm having my break now.so I decided to stay at home and chill today..I finally completed my scrapbook which i chucked in my cupboard,leaving it incomplete.But i guess today i just had the mood to do it..I actually started doing it after my 'O's..intended to finish it before i started poly.eh..i was a year late..but better late than never.hehe.

So i was just leafing through the photos and neoprints..and i cried. I never felt so..sad about moving on. I thought it was bad enough,me always having bouts of nostalgia for no reason.But today was the worst.I just miss it so much..miss everyone so much.I felt even sadder that everyone is everywhere..so many of them i've never seen ever since we left siglap. It's not only cloud9..i'm glad we're still going strong..but it's just the feeling of everyone being in the same place at the same time..just crapping our way through the 4 years..the last minute studying..laughing at your Fs in the report cards ( ok,so that's not applicable to everyone).


This is my..19th time blogging about missing siglap? And i'm pretty sure it's not the last.

I just started on a new project..got the inspiration today to do it.More tears guranteed.